Koushaku Reijou no Tashinami - Ch 175

A wish

"... Dan: What on earth are you doing calling me to this place? I have to get back to him soon."

"Oh, please spend some minutes here with me ..."

The tone is different from usual, I have not said the name of who was talking... The voice was from Yuri.

And the voice of a man called Dan ... That voice seemed to resemble that of the fiance of Mimosa, that I heard at the venue of the ball when he came to talk to us a while ago.

No doubt ... it's them, and my blood was boiling.

"I know that it's impossible between us, because you fell in love with that person.. I can see it when you are at his side, at least let me have a good rest here in your lap..."

"Oh no, thank you for your feelings but I have to go back urgently."

"Oh, please wait, Yuri"

...... As soon as her name comes out, I sighed.

Is she lying to herself? ... Dan knows her true identity?... My thoughts about their situation and Mimosa occupied all my head.

"...... I gave you a silly excuse ... In truth ..... I fell in love with you, I just wanted to see you alone a moment"

I caught a glimpse of the state of things inside the room through the gap of the door. Dan was kneeling on the floor and kissing her hand.

"I... I don't hate you ... I also wanted to see you... "

"Oh, Yuri ......!"

Dan hugged her in happiness. She accepts it.

"...... I was an innocent daughter of a baroness, but my father caught me finding a good gentleman to be my companion and even thought I was fortunate to find him, but.. you abandoned me when you knew I had someone to keep me company, you found out such a weak me.. you were so disappointed in me.. but.. but.. I like you.. so I want you to be able to breathe easily with her now at your side "

...... Her story sounds like.. he does not know her true identity, not? It's my conclusion from their talk.

Simply, she usually believes everything she says or acts, the story she tells is real for her, she really believes that her personality is that of a weak and honest girl ... and so on. When someone listens to his own lies, it comes to a point that he or she cannot distinguish the truth anymore within him/her.

"... but, you became another woman's man, do not you think?.. You're Ms. Mimosa's man now.."

To her saddened voice, he hurriedly opens his mouth.

"Such ... ... My heart is only for you, and forever will be."

I was curiously thinking about letting Tanya check the relationship between him and her and his relationship with the Twil 's country.

Is this a farce or ... Is the circumstances that I saw accurate and true?

Dan is ...... Mimosa's fiance.

Until then I had thought only about the aspect that he can help and accompany her ... about her happiness..  He is the fiance of my precious friend.

Even though I thought that it was a relationship that came abruptly and it was strange.. more from the fact that it was reported with a letter.

But now...

My friend was betrayed from her fiance and with the same woman.. just like me.

Imagining that future, my eyes got dark. I know how I suffered.. I don't want her to go through that..

I return to the hall right away to find Mimosa. Anyway, now I can't think of anything other than to talk with Mimosa about what I saw.

"... Mimosa"

I came back to find her standing alone on the wall of the hall.

"Did you need something, Iris?"

"There is something I'd like to tell you in a more secluded place, it will take only a bit of time. Can you?"

"I'm really sorry but.. I can't move from here.."

"Please!.. it's only a little time.."

She stills refuses.. but.. 

After insisting her for a while, she acknowledged "my only wish", "for only a little time"

I pulled her out and brought her into a suitable vacant room.

"Mimosa ... ... where is your fiance now?"

"Come on ... Don't scare me.. I told him to take a little rest in a waiting room. It might have been tiring since we just greeted everyone as a couple today."

Well, he was with Yuri.. not resting...

...... No, I was convinced that what I watched a little while ago was done without Mimosa knowing.

Still, I listened to her and asked because I really wanted it to be different from the bottom of my heart.

I wanted to believe that it was my mistake and not that the situation I just saw was true...

Even now, there is a feeling in me that wants it to be so.

"... Mimosa ... It's hard to say ... ... I wonder if it is better to break the engagement?"

"What's the matter with you suddenly? ... As we have announced our engagement to everyone this way, you know that I can not break it now after that?"

"You're still in time! .... He... I think you will be unhappy with him."

I wanted to explain the situation to her but I was not able to do it.
If I can get any assurance that she will not get hurt, I wouldn't tell her about what I saw just a minute ago.

But ... I know that she will be hurt in any case even if I do not say it now.

"Stop it ... I know better than you who he is. If that is all you wanted to say me, I will excuse myself."

I hurry and grab her hand to stop her from going.

"Wait! ... .... Actually, I know a story not so good about a relationship he has with a woman, so mimosa ......"

She swept away my arm. At that reaction, my mind stopped.

".... Even if it's true what you say, if he comes back to me at least.. it's all good.."

Looking at her eyes, I notice it.

"No way ... you... did you know that?"

To my question, her eyes slightly shook.

"Even if I knew, it's all good?"

"It's not good! You're my precious friend ...... I can not bless a marriage where you will not be happy."

"The value of happiness ... I'll decide it, if he is at my side, even like this, it is my happiness" ... You said to me before that even if Prince Edward loved her, while he was still engaged to you, you were happy. I'm happy if I could be by his side.. so please do not say anything about him anymore. "

"But you know how it did end with Ed!!! You cannot copy my mistakes!! "

I shouted with an urge that springs up from the bottom of my heart.

"I wanted to be happy with Ed! .... I was thinking seriously that only with being by his side I was happy, until that incident occurred, even if Ed did not see me, I thought it was good. I found myself on his side, staying by him ... but I was empty. "

My tears start to drop. The emotions are rising, I myself can not control it.

"One day, my heart was filled with dark black things, I hated myself and I drowned into those feelings more and more ... Mimosa, please don't end like me..."

"Iris ... ... you, you are not conduction yourself like a noblewoman now,"

Mimosa said so, expressionless.

"Happy by just being on his side? Happy .... In truth, I did not think so, what I said was just because.. I wanted to return your words, right? ...... Really, your conduct is not like a noblewoman"

"The blue blood that flows through this body needs to be inherited from now on ...... That is why my ancestors who have never seen before their partners face married and have been together for a long time. Is not that to be a nobleman? "

I could not return an answer.

Too cold, too much.

"So, as long as there is him, even if he has a woman other than me, I will be fine if he does his duty at the end, what I need for a marriage is the future descendants with blue blood flowing through them, like that I will have complied with my duties for my house. There is no more happiness, in that sense, Iris, at that time, you misunderstood the meaning of marriage. That is why that happened with Ed. "

The word comes back at me like a blade and cuts my heart.

"Mimosa, is it really okay ...?"

That word I said leaked from between my trembling lips and it sounded like a child.

"... ohhh... yeah ... I will live with my feet on the ground rather than falling in love with an unreachable dream ... ... so, I decided already."

My head got cold from her words of determination.

"Yeah ... I'm sorry ... I shouldn't have stopped you ... If you are prepared for it, I will not say it any more."

When I said it, she smiled.

...... But her eyes were invaded with sadness.

If anything, I felt tragic for her.

"Well, I can't keep him waiting. I will be rude. See you later Iris.."

And she left.

She probably did not want this engagement to be so, but she accepted it.

"I have not decided at all..."

I muttered when she disappeared.

Marriage for the lineage... It is an obvious common occurrence at this period of time and a duty to all noblemen.

I, myself, am thinking about where I have to marry the prince of Acacia.

So I know that this is my ego. But still ....

"It's not for the lineage, I wish for your happiness ... ..."

I want to see her real smile in the future, which I have seen when we spent time together.